Where did that wagon go?

Once again, on this crazy road called "Life" I seem to have fallen off the wagon again. Again. I say it so nonchalantly. Roll this back a few months to May and I see that I had such ambition. And that Shape Up program did help. That is, until I started faking the steps in the computer and flaking on using calorie count. I had gotten down to 215 when I actually followed through on my plan and I was feeling better. Now: Current Weight: 224.0 lbs. A mere pound away from where I was when I started this blog. The worst part? I've since been to the doctor. Turns out not only has my unhealthy habits affected my looks and self-esteem, it's now affected my body too. This last visit to the doctor has provided some scary results. High cholesterol and low vitamin D. She told me to go on a "low cholesterol" diet, but who the heck knows what that means. Without guidelines or examples, I may as well start huffing and puffing away at digging my own grave.

Taking the first step is always hard. Working this desk job is kicking my butt. No sunlight, sitting at a desk in front of a computer surrounded by carpet covered walls for hours on end, working toward no great goal, only the promise that one day I'll get to do something I enjoy and not have to work just to pay the bills on a house I never should have bought in the first place because I couldn't afford it. (Wow, talk about a run-on sentence).

Well, today I took my measurements again and I'm setting out to try again. Fall is coming and we all know that the lack of sunlight works it's killer way on my emotions and brings the depression crawling back. I can feel it. My chest is heavy with anxiety. I'm oversleeping every chance I get. I'm lazily lounging on the couch when I should be out doing something fun or at least keeping some sort of track of my life. My house is a mess, my life is a mess and I need to do something about it instead of just sulking all the time.

Trying again. It's both frightening and exhausting. I took pictures of myself and how terrible it's become. To be posted later when I can find my adapter. I took approximate measurements as well. We'll see how it progresses. Again, I'm going to try to keep up with the caloriecount and posting here. Hopefully that will help.

Here are the opening measurements:

Weight: 224.0
Chest/Shoulder Area: 46
Bust: 49
Ribcage: 39
Waist: 48.25
Hips: 46.25
Thigh: 27.50
Calf: 16.50
Bicep: 13.25
Forearm: 10.25